diary of an agnostic

walking to work today i though of the most perfect thing to say in a blog
i have forgot now the exact words
they are lost forever in my brain
perhaps i shall think them again and not realise in a few years
however they went something like this

I do not believe in god,no higher power,no devine spirit
put simply there is too much evil in the world,too much hatred,too much pain
however
neither do i believe in science,the big bang leaves a very obvious problem
what caused the big bang?
Was is caused by a sudden shift in space time in another universe causing our alternative universe to be created?
Or perhaps are we to something like gas is to us?
are we just floating on what we would call particles slowly dispersing into what would be a room (universe) with doors linking too many other universes (black holes possibly)?
No i do not believe in either

However i believe in the beauty of human nature
that we ourselves are devine
and are ourselves above creation by science or god(s)
let me explain
there is a certain beauty in the imperfect,
a certain grace in the smallest of freckles
a sad truth when a lover hurts another through their own stupidity
we are each one of a billion people
and yet
each a billion to one
mankind is imperfect, we hurt,kill,betray and lie on a daily basis
and yet each of us convinces ourselves that we are doing the best we can
nobody goes out wanting to be evil.
That itself is a miracle,

However there is more than just us in this world
the world itself is gorgous
hues of green,brown and blue litter the earth
I say litter as we do not appreciate them
we build buildings against them
we pummel through mountains just for the convenience of a shorter road
we trampel our beaches with rubbish for no to other reason then we can not be arsed to put our rubish in the bin.
If only we built around the earth,
Worked with nature rather than fighting against it
the earth could once again be beautiful.
Rather than its beauty designated to protected spots for our pleasure
so we can all reminisce on how life should be
and then do fuck all about it.

Mankind is imperfect
and hence
Mankind is devine