bloody emotions! why did you have to play up now!
feeling things that i shouldn't be feeling and i dont want to feel ...emotions that make no sense
damn emotions!
Friday, February 10, 2012
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
Life would be so much easier if emotions could be controlled or guided.But they cant they're completely seperate from the brain and all forms of logic. They dip and rise,twise and turn like a rollercoaster. At times they feel like the most stupid and crazy thing in the world and the worst think is you cant do anything with them. You just have jump on them if you an and sit through them if you cant. When you cant its the worst thing in the world. When you cant it really is horrible.Especially when you know how illogical and stupid it is its rediculous but you still cant shake it or change it.
The horrible thing is all logic is devised,everything in the world when you think about it is false.Why is a table a table? cause man said so.Why is gravity -9.8m/s^2...because it was metre is a length decided on by man and it jut so happens that gravity causes us to accelerate at that rate.
Feeling are some of the only truly real things that exist,and hence they are the most important.
So when they are being stubborn and illogical,it really can make life suck!
The horrible thing is all logic is devised,everything in the world when you think about it is false.Why is a table a table? cause man said so.Why is gravity -9.8m/s^2...because it was metre is a length decided on by man and it jut so happens that gravity causes us to accelerate at that rate.
Feeling are some of the only truly real things that exist,and hence they are the most important.
So when they are being stubborn and illogical,it really can make life suck!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
just erghh
Im sat here trying to revise for a physics exam and i just cant do it.I just dont have the drive or the willpower to force myself to trawl through gauss's and faradys laws and capacitance and all that bullshit.
I havent slept in 2 days and I just feel completly frazzled with it all.
I just want to sleep,I wanna rest my eyes and get rid of this feeling of crying that comes with being so tired your working to keep your eyes open.
I wanna go to bed but i know that its pointless because I wont fall asleep anyway ill just lie there feeling time go past and thinking about things until my alarm rudely interrupts me!
Atleast this is the last exam tommorow so not sleeping wont be so bad!
The only thing recently thats made me feel awake is seeing my awesome friends! they put a spark in me and I dunno how they do it but i love them all for it:)
I get an even bigger spark when i see this girl at uni :) and i managed to get the balls to as her on a date!
The only thing is now i worry that she didnt realise i was asking her on a date cause i never said the word...I mean im fairly sure she did realise but im not 100% sure....I realy really hope she did, I dread the thought that she didnt realise I really do.
I just feel i need this at the moment, even if it dont work out and its just a date.
I just cant wait for holidays...i only hope i sleep enough to enjoy them!
I havent slept in 2 days and I just feel completly frazzled with it all.
I just want to sleep,I wanna rest my eyes and get rid of this feeling of crying that comes with being so tired your working to keep your eyes open.
I wanna go to bed but i know that its pointless because I wont fall asleep anyway ill just lie there feeling time go past and thinking about things until my alarm rudely interrupts me!
Atleast this is the last exam tommorow so not sleeping wont be so bad!
The only thing recently thats made me feel awake is seeing my awesome friends! they put a spark in me and I dunno how they do it but i love them all for it:)
I get an even bigger spark when i see this girl at uni :) and i managed to get the balls to as her on a date!
The only thing is now i worry that she didnt realise i was asking her on a date cause i never said the word...I mean im fairly sure she did realise but im not 100% sure....I realy really hope she did, I dread the thought that she didnt realise I really do.
I just feel i need this at the moment, even if it dont work out and its just a date.
I just cant wait for holidays...i only hope i sleep enough to enjoy them!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Being a bloke
Being a typical bloke i have 2 things on my mind..sports and girls :)
this is about sports....and music
RUGBTY TOMMOROW , RUGBY TOMMOROW XDXDXDXDXD
GAHHH IM SO EXCITED!!!
and nervous aswell....new people,me being rusty,going up to adult level and other such things
but stilll
XDXDXDXD MUCH EXCITEMENT XD
Had an awesome weekend aswell
the gig was AMAZING! and i hadnt even litened to them all tht much :P
they were so so good!
and was good to head out with my friends also :)
nd then had awesome time sunday aswell :)
Life is fair good :)
this is about sports....and music
RUGBTY TOMMOROW , RUGBY TOMMOROW XDXDXDXDXD
GAHHH IM SO EXCITED!!!
and nervous aswell....new people,me being rusty,going up to adult level and other such things
but stilll
XDXDXDXD MUCH EXCITEMENT XD
Had an awesome weekend aswell
the gig was AMAZING! and i hadnt even litened to them all tht much :P
they were so so good!
and was good to head out with my friends also :)
nd then had awesome time sunday aswell :)
Life is fair good :)
Monday, April 18, 2011
Be Human
Feeling rather mortal at the moment
things just feel strange...feeling incredibly human
susceptible is i suppose how you would describe it
Grandad dying still seems a bit surreal...hard to think next time i go to england he wont be there
Friends in England seem further away then ever...even my bromance with Joe feels weak at the moment
I miss that dude :(
Also desperatly in need of some affection right now...i feel like theres a barrier around me
even towards my friends
and it feels like im making it.
things just feel strange...feeling incredibly human
susceptible is i suppose how you would describe it
Grandad dying still seems a bit surreal...hard to think next time i go to england he wont be there
Friends in England seem further away then ever...even my bromance with Joe feels weak at the moment
I miss that dude :(
Also desperatly in need of some affection right now...i feel like theres a barrier around me
even towards my friends
and it feels like im making it.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Pent up energy
I have so much pent up energy right now... feel like its gonna explode and make a mess everywhere unless i use it!
playing rugby :) year and a half is far too long to go without... driving me crazy!!
The only thing i can liken it too is trying to hold your breath... you can hold on feeling fine but then it gets to that part where your body just craves air and you cant resist the urge to breath again!
Im getting to that part now!!
Rugby is such an amazing challenge of power endurance and mental strength.. it really is the greatest sport there is!
Did you know that in the 2007 world cup final Bryan Habana (South Africas winger) did the 100 meters in under 10 second 10 times or something rediculous like that.In 80 minutes.... thats not to add all the other running and pushing he did!And have you seen all sprinters after one race... they look dead!! (except Usain Bolt)
You get to run until your heart gives out, shout and not feel like a prat , challenge yourself against people bigger than yourself try to outsmart the other team as you decide what move to pull of next orr just give up and attempt to smash your way though! (and if your me fail)
And then when your defending you see there people running at you and your body tells you to get out there way as the adrenalin kicks in and then instead you go into them and its the most amazing thrill!
Then after spending 80 minutes pummeling each over the 2 teams shake hands and relax :)
Its a true gentlemans sport, it is simply amazing :)
playing rugby :) year and a half is far too long to go without... driving me crazy!!
The only thing i can liken it too is trying to hold your breath... you can hold on feeling fine but then it gets to that part where your body just craves air and you cant resist the urge to breath again!
Im getting to that part now!!
Rugby is such an amazing challenge of power endurance and mental strength.. it really is the greatest sport there is!
Did you know that in the 2007 world cup final Bryan Habana (South Africas winger) did the 100 meters in under 10 second 10 times or something rediculous like that.In 80 minutes.... thats not to add all the other running and pushing he did!And have you seen all sprinters after one race... they look dead!! (except Usain Bolt)
You get to run until your heart gives out, shout and not feel like a prat , challenge yourself against people bigger than yourself try to outsmart the other team as you decide what move to pull of next orr just give up and attempt to smash your way though! (and if your me fail)
And then when your defending you see there people running at you and your body tells you to get out there way as the adrenalin kicks in and then instead you go into them and its the most amazing thrill!
Then after spending 80 minutes pummeling each over the 2 teams shake hands and relax :)
Its a true gentlemans sport, it is simply amazing :)
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